crazy dreams.

i really like this version -- more than carrie underwood's actually.
(side note: is smash the new glee? i wonder)

"Here's to you free souls, you firefly chasers
Tree climbers, porch swingers, air guitar players
Here's to you fearless dancers, shaking walls in your bedrooms
There's a lot of wonder left inside of me and you
Thank God even crazy dreams come true."

i actually had a crazy dream last night - a literal dream, which rarely happens for me. it's one of the first full nights of sleep i've had in a while and maybe that's why i had the dream. i dreamt that i confronted an old college roommate--one that i haven't talked in at least 3 or 4 years--and asked her why she stopped talking to me, why she didn't keep in touch after we moved out. we somehow got into a physical altercation where i ended up pinning her to the ground. and she said to me out of pure frustration, "it's because you don't take risks, that's why!"

and then i woke up.

maybe it's because my pastor preached about taking risks this past sunday, about stepping out of our comfort zones. maybe it's because i've been exploring during this phase of my life. maybe it's because i've been reading inspirational quotes that tell me to move forward and to take risks. maybe it's because i'm going to costa rica in a month by myself. maybe it's because i've resolved that 2012 is the year to shelve (negativity) and delve (into the new experiences).

just because my previous dreams weren't what i thought they were doesn't mean that i can't revise my dreams along the way...i can still be a dreamer. i just have to re-shift my focus...and take risks.