25!

happy 25th birthday to me! yay.

despite all the excitement of birthdays and reaching this milestone of living for a freaking quarter century, i couldn't help but feel an impending sense of doom last night. i don't know why. it was fleeting but it was definitely a feeling of discomfort and/or burden.

but 25 will be different. it already is different.

i woke up at my usual 5:30am this morning (side note: mama choi just commented that the bags under my eyes are off the chain today -_- i really need to start waking up at a more decent hour) and i did my usual routine: check gmail, check facebook, check google reader. okay that took 12 minutes. what next?

well, this past sunday i asked a friend to pray for me about meeting God in the Word. i've been really blessed to have this early morning time to spend with God and meet Him in prayer, but i've really been neglecting His Word. so this morning, i don't know what came over me, but i felt called to open up to 2 Corinthians. and this is what i read:

God of All Comfort

³ Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, ⁴ who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. ⁵For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. ⁶ If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; and if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings that we suffer. ⁷Our hope for you is unshaken, for we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort.


...He knows me. He really does. and He is good.

just a month ago, i was suffering lots, and yet it hit me (quite literally) that i am surrounded by the support of amazing friends, family, church, and coworkers. i am comforted, i am loved, and i am shown tremendous grace in times of suffering and in times of joyous celebration.

so as i whisk off to santa barbara wine country tonight and have a ditch day tomorrow with my sister (to celebrate BOTH our birthdays!!), i can't help but be thankful that i have another year of life to bask in His grace, His lessons, His glory, and His love.

and i love you, my lovely friends. He has blessed me beyond measure with your friendship...here's to another amazeballs year!!! :)